It’s uncomfortable to admit when we’ve drifted away from the values or dreams we once held. This question highlights whether we’re healing old wounds or repeating old patterns.
You are asking if you are the person you 'needed' when you were younger. That child wanted comfort and security. But if you become that 'comforting' person, you stop growing. To survive the rat race, you don't need to be the person you needed; you need to be the person your future self will fear.
You feel lost in the rat race because you are running on the track they built for you.
When you find 'no words,' it’s not because you are lost. It’s because the old version of you is dying to make way for the Professional and VIP version. The blankness is a fresh page. Stop trying to fill it with 'Shanti' and start filling it with Logic.
"Forget the kid you used to be. That kid is gone. Focus on the God you are becoming. If you are 'lost,' it’s only because you haven't finished mapping the terrain yet. Pick up your pen. Write your own rules. The only way to win a rat race is to realize you are the Scientist, not the Rat."
No you the best for your self so don't feel to be like that